Tuesday, May 13, 2008

And Relax

Inspirational Quote of the Day
The wide world is all about you; you can fence yourselves in, but you cannot forever fence it out.
J.R.R. Tolkien


Travel News:
I love to travel and England (and Wales) was amazing! We travelled around the country making a big loop- from going down to to the sea, to the west (Cardiff), to the midlands, to the north and northeast, and finally to London. It was great! We spent just over two weeks there. Getting to experience different cultures, hang out with friends again, getting to see everything! Amazing. Although, the exchange rate is horrible- over two dollars for one pound! Eeck. But, nonetheless, the trip was ace!


School News
School is done! Exciting! Last two exams were today- I don't know how I did, but I did them, so yay for that! I have one more thing I need to do to complete one of my classes, but after that- done! Then graduation for my Associates of Arts Degree is this weekend and then in three weeks I graduate high school- funny how I graduate two year college before I graduate high school! Then next year I will be attending a four year school- it'll be interesting- hopefully good!

Now for Some Photos:











Sunday, March 9, 2008

The World

Inspirational Message of the Day:

The world is a book and those who do not travel read only a page. - Saint Augustine



Travel:

One week and we'll be leaving for the UK! Yay! I've never been there and its just me and a friend. So it is exciting!



Videos:

My 5th youtube video was posted. So now I've made a Buffy/Supernatural crossover video, two Veronica Mars videos, and two Doctor Who videos! Yay!



School:

This semester has been alright. Classes go by quickly as I have them (18 credits) sqeezed into only 3 days! Right now, I should be finishing an essay that was due last Wednesday and is worth 100 points. (Its an exam essay.)



Picture of the Day:

(One that I worked on in my art class- yup computer art!)

Monday, December 31, 2007

One Hundred Things I'm Thankful For:

One Hundred things I'm thankful for:

I am thankful for...

1. getting through this year
2. my family being healthy
3. my parents being together
4. good grades
5. one of my best friends and I making up after about 6 months
6. meeting new camp friends
7. getting into two colleges (the only two I applied for)
8. my history professor being so good
9. “ “ and flexible- I can finish papers even though the semester is over
10. getting my new digital camera
11. getting DDR
12. driving safely
13. meeting new people at school
14. getting to be senior directors
15. getting several ribbons in speech
16. meeting the Irish friends
17. my parents allowing me to go to England for two weeks this next year
18. my friend’s parents allowing her to go to England with me
19. visiting three other states this year
20. having my job at camp
21. getting to be a councilor for one week
22. not drinking
23. not doing drugs
24. learning to play another song on the piano
25. getting several new seasons of TV shows
26. – Veronica Mars season 2
27. – Veronica Mars season 3
28. – Dark Angel season 1
29. – Dark Angel season 2
30. Adam getting several new seasons too
31. – Smallville season 1
32. – Supernatural season 1
33. Movie Gallery closing and buying 24 DVDs for only $15
34. getting back into fanfiction.net
35. learning about tthfanfic.com
36. typing up a story I wrote several years ago
37. posting this fic
38. learning about fanart
39. learning how to do fanart
40. learning about fanvideos
41. learning how to make fanvideos
42. getting a program to make fanvideos
43. my car still running
44. having a white Christmas
45. making a snow man before Christmas
46. snow in April
47. making a 7-foot-high snow creature in April
48. going to a resort with the school’s choir
49. going to prom
50. teaching Sunday school for my 8th year
51. having the many of the same kids we had last year in our older class
52. getting back into Neopets
53. the drama with online friends mostly ending
54. the DF boards still slowly going
55. having for the DF boards with all the stories
56. starting to write a long story- hopefully will get unstuck and finish it
57. making two fanart stories
58. writing several ficlets
59. starting to scrapbook
60. going down to grandma’s for spring break
61. having a week just mom and me
62. my brother graduating
63. my laptop still running
64. Kristen Bell joining Heroes- although its not as good as Veronica Mars
65. going to Dakota Library regularly
66. them having a large collection of CDs and videos and DVDs
67. being able to rent Doctor Who seasons 1 and 2 there
68. being able to rent Firefly there
69. getting to see old staff at the camp reunion
70. having good books to read for class
71. finishing Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows
72. finishing the 2nd book in the Earth child series
73. getting all As in the spring semester
74. my acting partner then still being alive
75. Japanese club in Spring semester
76. learning how to do origami
77. not spending all my time on DF boards
78. working with the Arthritis Foundation
79. going to JAM
80. working with America Reads
81. still loving camp
82. my cats being cute and cuddly
83. getting to see all four of my best friends in one place
84. sending out my letters to people at camp
85. finding my cross necklace
86. having fun with my hair
87. going to the PL library regularly
88. working on musical and one-acts
89. being in two choirs in spring
90. meeting and having a friend in geography
91. meeting another friend in history 3 and Tai Chi
92. getting a body pillow
93. fishing at camp
94. having kids from camp remember me
95. adding more money to my bank account
96. having several massages
97. having some really good friends
98. my friends being healthy
99. my family being here and safe and healthy
100. being alive and ready for a new year

Happy New Year!

Sunday, December 16, 2007

FanVids and Exams

Inspirational Message of the Day:
One learns to fight the war by fighting the war.
- Chairman Mao (I believe... its in Red Azalea)



Video:
For the first time I made a fanvideo! I've done fanfiction for years (since 2002) and then I just recently started to do fanart (starting in September) and now I've started making fanvids!
I posted it on youtube. This is my profile page: http://www.youtube.com/tearzofash.





School:
Only one more week... exams week. Eeck! Thankfully, only one is a memorization exam. One is a take home exam, and then two have take home essays and then notes short answer and terms (a lot of prep work, but still better than memorization exams!)




Picture of the Day:

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Cars, Snow, School, and Life

Inspirational Message of the Day:
The world is a book and those who do not travel read only a page.
- Saint Augustine

Car
Yesterday, my car stalled. My phone was dead. I was the first person in the 1st left turn lane. Therefore, people kept coming up behind me and honking and getting annoyed. So in the 10 degree weather, I had my window down trying to point people to get into the other turn lane w/out a jacket just my sweatshirt. This went on for an hour until my dad came and a cop came and pushed me through the light and into a side area to wait for a tow truck. This tow truck didn't come for another hour. Oi. Although this experience has definitely reminded me that there are amazingly nice people out there too. I have four cars stop and ask if I needed help or a cell phone. Because my phone was dead, I borrowed the first car's cell to call my dad. So thank you to the people that did stop.

Snow
Two major snow storms=lots of snow. And yet not sticky enough to make a snow man. Very sad. I love making snow men, or snow creatures. Last year I made a 7-foot-high snow creature!



School
Only two weeks left of the semester. Lots of studying and essays and reading that I need to do. Oi.
Life
Means everything else that is stressful.

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Having fun!

I saw these on another blog and decided I just had to try them!
Me Simpsonified! Woot! http://simpsonizeme.com/



Me Meezified! Doublewoot! http://www.meez.com/

Friday, September 14, 2007

New Camera!

I'm definitly excited because I just got a new camera yesterday! Oh its very nice, espeically from my old three year old digital camera... although it still works perfectly and I love it dearly! :)

http://www.fujifilm.com/products/digital_cameras/f/index.html
Theres an overview of the type. Its a Fujifilm Finepix F45fd (Which I can't find it in there... hum.)

Anyway, I like it a lot!

Saturday, September 8, 2007

Real World and School... Oh Joy!

Well for a month we have been away from camp. If you have ever been away for a long time to a camp or living else where (and enjoyed it) you know that when a month has gone past you still remember everything about it and wish to still be there. Oh how I do wish to be there so bad. But no, the real world is here and school, college aps, and everything else in life would still be here if I left.

Classes... second year at community college for PSEO (Post Secondary Erollment Options). And so far I have 30 credits and am taking 17 credits this semester and plan to take 17-18 next semester to get my AA degree, excited! The classes range from pretty easy-very intense, the very intense being two classes taught by the same professor, but since they are history courses, I need to and want to be taking them! Its been two weeks into classes and its already been taking up a lot of my time, yay document summaries, assigned readings, etc.

College Aps... well as I am a technical senior in high school and my mother insits upon me filling out aps to all the colleges that she has insisted me going to... I have sent one, filled out four more almost completely, and have two more that are not done at all... for the schools I have visited and not hated (only one I truely didn't like). And then I will be going to see one-two more schools eventually... both ones that I want to see.

Anyway. I have to eat and go to my Saturday class now.
Sorry for the length in between posts... camp really didnt have good internet connection and speed.

..CD..

Thursday, July 5, 2007

Camp Life Vs Real Life

Well right now we are on forth of July break from camp... so for one full week we are off camp and in the real world. Need I say that it is extremely different? :P

At camp everything is on a schedule and irl this is none.
At camp meals are cooked for you and it comes in mass, irl you have to hunt for food or go and buy.
At camp you dont have to worry about news and terrorism and gass prices, irl I have a next to empty gas tank.
At camp you dont have to shower for several days or brush your hair, irl if you dont you cause quite the stare or backing away from.
At camp you are expected and encouraged to be crazy and hilarious, irl can only be that in select places.

Oh I love camp... If you have never gone, I pity you. It is an amazing experience and I love every day of it even if I am so exhausted or annoyed.

Thursday, June 7, 2007

Camp Time

Well here it is. The time has come. It is camp time yet again. This means that it is officially summer now (with the one high school class completely finished). And this means that in less that 8 hours I'm on the road to camp. Which I will be at this entire summer working and working and goofing off and having a swell ol' time... hopefully!

Now for anyone who hasn't ever gone to a camp, you are definitely missing out. There is something about camps that are just amazing and create memories that last forever (well at least for many years). Songs, games, craziness. Three amazing things. And then the last-> Friends. I have meet so many people at this camp and it is amazing how close I was with them and how close I still am with some of them.

Well. Short entry because I need to finish packing and I need to sleep sometime as well.
So I will try to come on here to write some posts... I still need to write the post on military affecting young people now... because reality is sometimes very sad and very real... which is completely different than the camp life because it is in no way afflicted with reality.

..CD..

Saturday, June 2, 2007

A Little Autism 101

Well I said I would give you a little autism 101 as well. I dont think this one will be as long as the Arthritis 101 entry, but it bit just be if I randomly go off. :)

Autism is a very serious and complicated developmental disorder that effects the brain of a person diognosed with autism. People with autism have different symptoms and disablities. Some things that many people with autism suffer with are: socail skills, communication (verbal or non-verbal), delayed motor skills, etc. There is one reason why autism exists (same with some forms of arthritis) though doctors have agreed that differences in the brain have caused autism.

My brother was born prematurely (as I was) and he was only 2 pounds and some onzes (I was 5 lbs something). He also had to have surgery when he was an infant, something in his body was not attached to something it was supposed to be attached to, I'm not entirely sure what though... something in his chest/stomach because he has a very large scar down the middle of his front side. Anyway. Because of this it is likely that brain damage, etc was caused by his complications in birth and after birth. Along with Autism he has other developmental disorders and delays. But on a range of mild to severe, he definitely is more towards mild.

Sunday, May 27, 2007

The Graduate

Well I know its a new blog. And with anything new it is hard to start up and keep with it. So I believe that will explain the lack of posts. Also as I have been very busy with life and friends and scrapbooking for my brother. Yup. Its been busy. Last time I updated I had planned to write and Autism 101 the next day. I will do that in the near future, but not today. Then that next day I learned that three of my friends joined up with the marines, which I thought I could write about instead. So I will need to write about that too. But then I just kept forgetting to get on and write.

Anyway. I wanted to share a little about my brother's graduation party since I mentioned that in the first entry. Well it was a small party with almost all of the relatives (except one) and some of my brother's friends and some of my parents friends and some neighbors and his bus driver and then one of my friends. So I guess there was a number of people who came. There was a lot of food: we had lots of veggies, fruit, cake, and then also a very good turkey sandwhich type thing. I will have to get the recipe and post it on here as I have seen some people do on other blogs. As always, my brother had a hard time greeting everyone as he was mostly just sitting and talking with friends. So my parents had to frequently tell him to go greet so and so. It was a nice day out though, so that was good. And he got a lot of cards and even better- money. Though by now he's already spent quite a bit of it. My parents are trying to stop this and have him save it and spend it on something he really would like instead of small things here and there.

Anyway. This is a smaller update and I'm quite tired still. I've had a lack of sleep ever since the midnight showing of Pirates 3 last Thursday-Friday. It was an amazing movie and everyone should see it and make sure to stay till after the credits.

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

A Little Arthritis 101

Now few people believe that children can get arthritis. And I think that is the first thing I want to correct any reader of this blog on. Children do indeed get arthritis, in fact, its not even that rare. About 300,000 children in the United States have some form of juvenile arthritis. This can be JRA (Juvenile Rheumatoid Arthritis), SLE (Juvenile Systemic Lupus Erythematosus), JSp (Juvenile Spondyloarthopathy), and more. JRA is the most common type of arthritis in children and I am one of those children affected. My start with JRA started when I was only 2.5 and my parents noted me complaining consistantly of knee pain. It was a long journey of tests and mystery diagonses and medications and alternative therapies ahead. My current Rheumatologist has also diagonsed me with FMS (Fibromyalgia). She believes that this started because of having JRA as a child. I have learned that this is quite common. Many people with RA (Rheumatoid Arthritis) also develop FMS.

Arthritis literally means "inflation of the joints." Now this term is used much more loosely and with over 100 types of arthritis, not all involve inflation of the joints. With all of these 100 plus types of arthritis, over 66 million Americans have arthritis. Nationally, 1 in every 3 adults is doctor diagnosed with arthritis. And it is the number one cause of disability in the United States.

Now what exactly is arthritis? Well as I have JRA and FMS, I will tell you a little about them. On my sidebar I have included several links as well. One is to the Arthritis Foundation. They are a great organization that gives out brouchers, hold arthritis walks, have exerice programs and support groups, and have speakers that can come out and talk with you. (This last year I have worked with my AF and volunteered at JAM (Juvenile Arthritis March) and as a speaker to go out and speak about arthritis).

JRA (Juvenile Rheumatoid Arthritis) effects one or many joints and can also effect body organs as well. Some symptoms for JRA are joint pain, inflammation, and stiffness. Many children with JRA also have symptoms that include uveitis, anemia, fevers, rashes, nodules, etc. I have what is called polyarticular JRA, which means that my JRA effects more than 5 joints. For me, these joints are: both of my hips, knees, and ankles, and starting in January, my right jaw as well. Children with JRA in four or less joints have Pauciarticular JRA. The thrid type of JRA, and the most rare (thankfully), is Systemic Onset JRA. Systemic Onset JRA effects the entire body. Many children with this type get daily high fevers and rashes as well as typical JRA symptoms. I'd like to add that not all children have the same symptoms and that everyone is effected differently by their arthritis,

FMS (Fibromyalgia) is a condition that causes wide-spread, chronic pain. It is a confusing condition that doctors still don't know too much about. It effects many different things in the body, including (but not all) pain (especially in the 18 tender points), fatique, depression and anxiety, migraines, word mix-ups and difficulty concentrating, abdominal pain, bloating, constipation and diarrhea, skin color changes, tingling limbs, and jaw pain. I have most of these symptoms and also several more not noted.

I am constantly in some form of pain or another, but I have learned to live with it as well. My grandmother also have Juvenile Arthritis, and her sister had lupus, in my family we believe that it was my genetics that caused my JRA, not everyone has a reason they can find and doctors and researchers are searching for reasons and cures. Because my grandmother died of ulcers from all the medications she took I no longer take medications on a daily basis. I did from when I was 2.5 up until I was a young teen. I decided on my own that I would stop and only take medication when I most needed it. I then explored many different alternative therapies, some worked and some didn't, but each one helped me along with my arthritis in discovering more about it and more about me.

..CD..

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

The "Normal" One

"No one with an abnormal sibling has a normal childhood. Consciously or unconsciously, every intact sibling is haunted by the fear of catching the disability, a fear that always has a modicum of psychological truth. Family gatherings and significant events become occasions for anxiety and suppressed shame. Cheerful caretakers, mature before their time, they are supposed to consider themselves lucky to be normal. They feel tormented by the compulsion to compensate for their parents' disappointments by having no problems and making no demands, and they are often unaware of the massive external and internal pressure to pretend that nothing is amiss. Their success is always tainted by their sibling's failure, their future clouded by an untoward sense of obligation and responsibility. Their goal is to be as different from their sibling as possible. They live forever in the shadow of the one who does not function."
Excerpt from the introduction to "The Normal One" by Jeanne Safer

I was actually unaware of this book until just a moment ago, after I created the title of this blog. I was trying to find a quote or poem that would help me start this blog and I just so happen to stumble upon a site for Siblings of Special Needs Children and it had a link to the site of Jeanne Safer and it had a larger excerpt. I will now be ordering or running to Barnes-Noble for this book tomorrow.
I should include the link to her page in this to. So here it is: http://thenormalone.com/

As for me. I think you can conclude that I am the "normal" one. I am a teenager who just completed her first year of college while still in high school. Including being the sibling to a brother with special needs, I also have a chronic disablility. I have JRA (Juvenile Rheumatoid Arthritis) and FMS (Fibromyalgia). My autistic older brother is 20 and is graduating this month, which is a whole new journey in his life and the life of our family, the start of that journey is having to battle the task of cleaning our house for his graduation party next weekend.

And I'd like the disclaimer up, I'm not "normal," not by any means. Normal just can not exist as any definition of a person. No one is "just normal." No one. The title came about because that is what I often came and come across, "Oh, you're the normal one" or "Thank God your parents had at least one normal child." And my parents would be the ones who say, "Thank God we have two wonderful, healthy, beautiful children."

..CD..